Have nothing to give of what she dreams of but may be another 60 years and that is all I have

Just a few days left for the big day of my life and here I am trying to make the ends meet. They say that when the big day comes near then all sort of questions start coming to mind. She loves me or she loves me not. You see love is a complicated chemical locha, interpretation of which is not common to people who find it difficult to understand the process and ingredients of this locha, which happens only in mind and I am one among them. I am not the one whom someone would look and say that he is the perfect person, but i guess no one in this world is perfect. I am what I was an year ago and while as I learn I keep adapting to new situations, circumstances and new people but I can never be some one I never was. For the most part of my life I had thought that love is what is required to lead a "and they lived happily ever after" kind of life. But the fact is love is not the only chemical ingredient required for such kind of life. It is amazing to know that there is no sure short formula also to lead such a life. So what are the real ingredients? I had always dreamed to say Yes to some one who knows that for any relation to build a strong bond requires a hand, a hand to hold you when times are not good, an attitude of never to give up on each other even in the worst of the situations or a simple acknowledgement that two people can never be the same and that they will have differences. It requires purity of heart and thoughts and a self less commitment to make it work and where failure is not an option. I always thought of finding some one who is independent in her own ways. While she may require care and some one to stand by her but when it dawns upon and the situation requires her to be then she will be strong and independent. A fighter - for the right things in life and for ensuring that no wrong is done to others. Some one who knows how to manage and respect feelings and emotions of self and others. Some one who serves as a bond for the members of the families. Some one who is kind at heart and who knows how to live larger than life. I had imagined her chit chatting bringing with her a sense of energy. Like the sun, you some how trust that it will again rise the next day and brighten up your day. I knew that this is what is the right ingredient for a happily ever after life so when I met her I said Yes.