Have nothing to give of what she dreams of but may be another 60 years and that is all I have

Just a few days left for the big day of my life and here I am trying to make the ends meet. They say that when the big day comes near then all sort of questions start coming to mind. She loves me or she loves me not. You see love is a complicated chemical locha, interpretation of which is not common to people who find it difficult to understand the process and ingredients of this locha, which happens only in mind and I am one among them. I am not the one whom someone would look and say that he is the perfect person, but i guess no one in this world is perfect. I am what I was an year ago and while as I learn I keep adapting to new situations, circumstances and new people but I can never be some one I never was. For the most part of my life I had thought that love is what is required to lead a "and they lived happily ever after" kind of life. But the fact is love is not the only chemical ingredient required for such kind of life. It is amazing to know that there is no sure short formula also to lead such a life. So what are the real ingredients? I had always dreamed to say Yes to some one who knows that for any relation to build a strong bond requires a hand, a hand to hold you when times are not good, an attitude of never to give up on each other even in the worst of the situations or a simple acknowledgement that two people can never be the same and that they will have differences. It requires purity of heart and thoughts and a self less commitment to make it work and where failure is not an option. I always thought of finding some one who is independent in her own ways. While she may require care and some one to stand by her but when it dawns upon and the situation requires her to be then she will be strong and independent. A fighter - for the right things in life and for ensuring that no wrong is done to others. Some one who knows how to manage and respect feelings and emotions of self and others. Some one who serves as a bond for the members of the families. Some one who is kind at heart and who knows how to live larger than life. I had imagined her chit chatting bringing with her a sense of energy. Like the sun, you some how trust that it will again rise the next day and brighten up your day. I knew that this is what is the right ingredient for a happily ever after life so when I met her I said Yes.

India's 65th Republic Day!

Arvind Kejriwal was making news during last few days and that is what he was looking for. All the news channels had only one head line, who would be the next prime minister. Along with that this year 2014 we celebrated India's 65th Republic Day. Exactly 65 years ago the Constitution of free India came into force. Amid this back ground two people on this planet were trying to figure out about how their life's next big step would look like. A bigger decision was yet to be taken. The day was quite cold as the winters were on their full swing. Kanpur roads were as usual busy during the afternoon. I was dressed in blue shirt and a grey trouser, my best colors, I thought. I had not thought how the day would proceed and had my fingers crossed. First time meeting some one brings goose bumps to me. Me along with my parents and sister made our way through the narrow staircase and reached the first floor of the building. We had warm welcome and every one was waiting to meet the new face. It was like when you wait for your interview, you look up to the person every time she would call a name and wonder when will your name be called. It was that long wait and the turn was yet to come. After a pretty good time we witnessed her first glimpse. I had mixed emotions because at that moment while I realized she was there at the same time I realized there were people around, both known and unknown figures, who might be watching my moves or probably noticing my eye movements. She sat on a chair which was a feet away on my right side. I finally looked at her and she was like an innocent girl looking down at her feet. And suddenly there was silence, as if every one was waiting for the judgement call. The silence extended a while more, I almost felt that I would burst in that very silence. Some how we heard a voice and after a couple of sentences from my dad and sister I spoke. As I spoke I took the chance to first time look at her. We had nothing to talk about but compare the weather of Kanpur with Bangalore and then Bangalore with what not. I think the best conversations start with guessing of the weather in India. But hopefully this trick works all the time to start a conversation. What followed was a series of conversation and replies. I tried as much as I can gather but the mind was registering only fragments of what I was discussing, I was worried as to what part of my conversation she might not like so I should rather limit my words. Soon we managed to understand a bit of each other and that was it. Soon we were off to the nearest mall along with both the families and we talked a little more. I was hoping form one member of the family to another and still noticing where she was heading to. Soon the day end came near and we bade good bye to every one. It was an eventful day and I believe it ended well for all of us. In times to come I only hope that the story which started with 'Once upon a time' ends with 'and they lived happily ever after'. Some stories are only read in books and some find a place in an award winning function. I wonder where my story meets her's in the real life, out of the pages of the book which is still being written some where. I am yet to write 'My Adventure Book' and the 'Stuff I'm going to do'.