This is a random thought box, no specific topic, just some thing about everything:
Random Thought-1
Entering in to the 12th month of my job I was just wondering that I have survived this period. Let us accept this fact, life is not that straight. Off late I have been daily thinking about how my future would look like. Things that will change the course of my life, things like job, marriage, family etc etc. The best part of this time is that it puts u in a dilemma where you are in a state of illusion.
College is the thing of past. It was the time when time was in abundance. Now is the time when time is limited. On the one hand it is difficult to make decisions that might affect your life, so quickly and on the other the time is running short. So what is it that I am supposed to do? I am clueless, unless some one can guide me, but the truth is there is no one called some one or is it my illusion.
Random Thought-2
I have heard stories since my child hood which had similar endings "...and they lived happily ever after". I have always thought my life to be like a fairy tale, and why not. Is it possible? Yes it is, the only thing required is to make the right choice in your life. So it is about the choice, but wait, every one in this world makes choices and if it is about the special one then she also has a choice to make. So what if their is a clash of choices or to be more specific clash of expectations from one another?
Expectations is what we develop when two people come close to one another. Though this is not always true but in a love marriage usually what happens is that the two develop very high expectations from one another. Promises like "chand sitare tod ke lana" and "mai tumhare liye jaan bhi de dunga" are made when the two are in love with one another. What happens after marriage is that if not "chand sitare" the two end up buying groceries from the near by store and cooking real food and discussing real life situations with each other. NO one dies but they rather strive to live together "...happily ever after". In some corner of the mind the unfulfilled high expectations leads to dissatisfaction.
In arrange marriages, unlike in love marriage, the two are absolutely unaware of one another and thats when after getting married they start building expectations from one another along with the process of mutual understanding. The end result is that they also buy groceries but they seem to live a life of "...happily ever after".
But the above situation is not true always. In either of the cases the the arrangement might not work out as thought from before hand.
What if there be a third situation, where it is not exactly a love marriage and neither it is an arrange. This situation arises when there is an understanding among the two and they do not make expectations which can not be fulfilled. But since it is a stage where the relation still has no name the two are cautious to not to reveal too much and not to hide too much so as to end up messing the whole thing. It is a stage where they know about each other but there still lies the scope of exploration which can be crucial for the life changing choices to be made. A stage where distances does not allow for easy exchange of thoughts and feelings, where meeting one on one is still a distant dream and where love is still talked less about since distances does not allow to develop those feelings immediately.
Marriage is not a part of life but it is life itself.
When time is moving constantly and has its limited existence then choices as these are difficult to make. Its a choice which requires from both dedication, maturity, responsibility, a good understanding, and the most of all, love. In my fairy tale I dream of some one who will be my world and for whom I will the world. Its time to "explore" my world and make sure it ends with "...and they lived happily ever after."
Signing off :)
